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one month ago
Mom x

Two years today I said my final goodbye to you, gave you my last ever hug and kiss and had to lay you to rest for good. The day started of with you back home with me and boo where you belong, I put your cream on your face has it was drying out and made sure you was ok, I stayed awake all night with you, talking to you about all the memories you left behind, telling you how proud I am of you. I loved having you back home (even if it was just for one day). The night went so fast and before i knew it it was time to lay you to rest for good. I can’t remember much about the day if I’m honest but I know the church was packed and not a dry eye was to be seen anywhere. The worse part was coming back home, the house was empty, our home Jimmy it felt strange and lonely (hard to explain) knowing you wasn’t going to walk back through the door or sit on your special cushion again I just broke down. It wasn’t real, it still doesn’t feel real. I often just imagine you are in hospital and I wait for your phone call to tell me what the doctor has said and if you can come back home.but that phone call never comes and then it all comes back to me why 😭💔. It feels only yesterday when I said goodbye to you but it feels like years and years since I last saw you. I miss you so bad my brave soldier 💔😭. I can’t wait until i see you again, but until then I will do my best to look after Boo for you. I miss you so much. I love you to heaven and back and more xxxx

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4 months ago
Mom x

Merry 2rd Heavenly Christmas my brave soldier. Another one i have to get through without you being here with me 😭💔. Today is going to be so hard Jim. Has I sit here and think of all the memories from our previous years, I have to wipe the tears from my eyes and know that all that has now gone 💔😭. It’s hard without you being here with us Jim. Boo now gets the presents from under the tree, (a job you’ve done every Christmas morning since you’ve been about 6), you would enjoy reading who the present was for. Every Xmas morning we had the same conversation, you would say I ain’t doing my meds today it’s Xmas and I would reply back with get them taken Jim. You would always laugh and do them all before breakfast. I remember the year you had your I pods and you told me to use one (you had the other one using) while I did the dinner stuff and you said “mom don’t lose it” and I replied back “I’m in the kitchen doing the dinner stuff how am I suppose to lose it” then I had to come in the living room and tell you I’ve lost your I pod Jim” you just looked at me and said “that really don’t surprise me” (you always said I lost everything) we found it on the kitchen side. these memories might not be anything to others but I remember your face. To say I miss you isn’t right Jim because I do more then miss you. I miss everything about you, the memories, the laughs, I even miss coming in every morning and waking you up because your meds is due (I know you won’t miss that one). I will do my best to make today special for you and boo (like I always do) but Jim I will be thinking of you every second. Merry Christmas big boy have a great day. Enjoy all the pigs in blankets and Yorkshire puddings. I love you to heaven and back xxxx

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11 months ago
Mom x

4 years ago today we got the call we had been waiting so long for. The call to say your new liver was here. You was getting weaker and weaker has the days were going by so this call was so desperately needed. We didn’t have long to gather our stuff and say our goodbyes before the ambulance arrived to take you to London hospital. I was nervous, scared, happy, worried etc (didn’t know how to feel) but you like the man you are just took it all in your stride and kept laughing and joking with the paramedics all through the journey. You even kept making sure I was ok, telling me all will be fine and you will be back home annoying me and Jess again soon. Even through your hardest days Jim you made sure others were ok. Life kept throwing hurdles at you all through the wait but you just kept beating them all. The day was along long day and you slept a lot, but We were there through it all with you, I wasn’t letting you do this alone. You had so much thrown at you Jim everyday seems like there was something else for you to have to fight and beat but you always said to me mom I may lose the battles but I will win the war and My brave soldier that’s exactly what you did. You won the war. Jim 1 - cystic fibrosis 0 To say how proud of you I am could never be written or shown has I’m the proudest mom in the world. You are a unknown hero Jim, an inspiration to everybody. A role model we all should look up to. The strength and determination you have is like nothing I’ve ever seen before. You are and always will be my brave soldier. I love you to heaven and back and more. Xxxx

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